happy again...

i have been more and more amazed lately about the things that are happening in my life. just when i was at my most confused and, especially here lately, most frustrated point, something or someone enters or, in this case, reenters my life and brings a smile and hope back that had faded for a time.
in just a single 5 hour afternoon, which began as a simple lunch, a smile was back on my face. i won't get into particulars now, maybe someday soon depending on what happens, but just say that i am very happy again. i know some were worried about me here lately. i've been bitter, pissed, slightly depressed and ready to just say screw it all, but its times like this i realize that someone truly is looking over me and does want me to be happy.
i want to thank all of my friends and extended family who have offered their concerns for me over the last few months. its been a trying time with all the changes that have happened to me since the summer and the support i've gotten is still quite unbelievable.
just know now that i am happy. i'm not always the best at expressing those types of things and i apologize. i have much love for my dear friends. even those who piss me off from time to time, haha. you know who you are. love ya bro.
anyways, this may be my last blog for a while with the holiday season on hand. so happy holiday's to all, no matter what you celebrate make it a safe holiday and end of year and a safe entry into the new year.
love to all,
peace, love and ductape,
cliff

FANTABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!

what a night. saturday night was an awesome night for the guys and myself. thanks to everyone who came out in support. new and old friends alike. sorta akward night for me at times, but now that i'm sober and no longer hungover beyond belief i know i did the right thing. although i must say, shiner, jager, tequila and whatever else a few people brought over to me to shoot made things VERY hazy at times.
so much love to everyone, especially, chris, oz, colin, keith, tull, brandi, christian and brock. not to mention amy, jk, brandy and everyone else i forgot. it was awesome. love you all and happy holidays.

get real

i'm tired of people who seem to refuse to think outside the box. seems like in everything i've done lately, whether its my photography, design or whatever, no matter who its for i'm getting the line, "you have to realize its a business, this is how things are done in this business."
BULLSHIT!
why are people so afraid to go against the norm? you get dragged through a business, whether sports, entertainment or general corporate and you think things must be done as they always have. well guess what, the successful people are those who refuse to live by the standards and limitations that are preexisting.
you think a bill gates, mark cuban, etc... worried about standards and limits? hell no. they thought outside the box, did what others had always been afraid to do, refused to conform.
let's all stop putting dumbass labels on everything we do in life and go with what are hearts and creative minds tell us to do. i think we would all be amazed at the results.
stop conforming. i'm not calling for anarchy here, besides, have you ever looked at the people that say they are non-conformist anarchists? what a load of crap, they all dress alike too. screw it, be original, stop bowing down to the general standards and practices and be creative.
if you want to stay in that box, fine, just don't be suprised if those of us who broke out don't load you up on a uhaul and ship your boring, conformist ass off to a cubical.
get real people, enough of the bullshit. it is about friendships and the gray area. i'm out, gotta box to ship.

stupid

never mind. i was wrong

prescription: MONKEYSHYNE

i have learned over the last 10 months or so that no matter what kinda mood i'm in, crappy or otherwise, no matter who i may be pissed at or just generally annoyed with, nothing seems to matter once the guys hit the stage and do what they love, allowing me to do what i love.
that was never more apparent than last saturday night in temple. still kinda peeved about certain events over the last few weeks i headed to temple for a night of fun and was not disappointed. you can't beat the comraderie of a van of friends on a road trip. some of the crap we come up with on those trips boggles the mind. once there, meeting up with our friends from opus flux just added to the fun.
i forgot everything i had been pissed about and realized i am very very lucky to have friends like this who i get to hang with and bond with. the other shit doesnt matter in the long run. these are the memories that make it worthwhile.
until next time, in the words of the great colin watson,
peace, love and ductape.
p.s. chris i am still pissed for that 2 year comment though. you suck. HA HA

sooo close

well, one day of freezing weather just isnt enough for me. i was in heaven yesterday with the 20 degree weather and the texas version of snow. after 3 years in upstate new york i have grown to miss the cold, snowy weather.
ive always had the theory and this theory is why i love the cold so much and perhaps is has something to do with me being a fat bastard, but i digress. the theory is, there are only so many clothes you can talk off in the heat, but you can always add clothes in the cold.
now if you find that counter-productive in the relationship sense, forget it, nothing better than cold nights for finding ways of staying warm. hows that sound to everyone?
on another note, monkeyshyne is headed back out. after keith's treck to mexico, and who doesnt wanna hear that story, the boys are headed to temple on the 2nd, back to dallas on the 9th and off to tyler on the 16th. come one, come all.
peace, love and ductape.